Violet Rays

You would think that I would write about one of the main reasons why I started this blog, but no. I purposely have been avoiding the issue that I’ve been trying to go raw for the pass month or so.

I’m so afraid that I’ll be judge and questioned. I go with my emotions and gut feeling. Therefore, I’ll take in the scientific information, and let it reaffirm what I already believe then through it out the window. So, whenever somebody questions me, I’m sitting there looking like an idiot. This never really shakes my beliefs, considering that my gut feeling and emotions has gotten me this far without dieing. The thing I fear most is judgment. Negative judgment from other people. That is the biggest thing I fear about telling people about this diet. Here I am, an African-american overweight girl who thinks she can be raw vegan. Ha. That is what I believe is going through everybody’s mind. ‘Ha. She is crazy. She can’t do that.’ So for the most part, I keep this goal under wraps (well, not anymore since my friends read this)

I’m taking it really slow, by eliminating each unhealthy habit at a time.
Week 1 I eliminated bread.
This did not include, crackers, sweets, etc. Just the plain Sara Lee bread.

Week 2 (this week) I’m getting rid of sweets, my all time enemy.

I’ve battled with sweets since I was 14. It wouldn’t be so hard if it wasn’t for the whole emotional part. I have to stop and figure out why I’m actually grabbing for that extra cinnamon role. Am I actually hungry (most of the time no) or just frustrated? I think each time I try to grab for something sweet, I’m going to journal what is going on inside my head, maybe that will help. I’ll give the results next week.


Week 3 (next week) – eliminate the rest of the bread products.

That’s pretty much it. Leira is going raw.

Love,
Leira Violet